To Learn is to Love

Friday, August 4, 2017

Learning as I Go

Outfit Details:
Checkered Dress: Thrifted 
Shoes: Black Sandals from Shoe Station

I think there are some things in this world that we must learn for ourselves. We can hear from anyone else, but we must experience it and come to that conclusion on our own. 
With my senior year coming up and so many other changes pressing the gates, I've been so concerned about my future. While the future in itself isn't something I can change or worry about, it hard not to think about it when I'm constantly being asked about where I plan to go to school and what I plan on doing with my life. To answer those questions, I haven't figured that out yet. I don't have a solid plan and that kills the inner-organizer within me. 

One of options involves moving away from home and/or going to an out-of-state school. And while I've been itching to get away from my family, my love for them keeps pulling at my heart and nerves. In other words, I'm incredibly nervous/worried/afraid of moving away from the people I've shared a house with for the past 17 years. On the other hand, I've never really liked where I currently live and know I'll one day move away anyway. While that previous statement should calm my fears, this town and the people in it seem to stay/always come back. Part of that is that it's where they feel at home. Regardless, I don't want to be one of those  people "stuck" here (for lack of a better word). I mean either way I will move out one day, it just depends on how soon I choose to make the move. 

My uncle, in attempt to steer me toward in-state schools, told me I should go to school where I plan to live. But the problem is that schools in New York are SOOO expensive. Almost any out-of-state school would be closer to New York/D.C./New England than an in-state school in Louisiana. I've been arguing with myself about this stuff for months. I've quite actually been driving myself insane. 
So after all these months and arguments, I finally watched Moana. I've been dying to watch this movie when it came out, but never really got around to it. I've heard so many of the songs from the kids I babysit and I sort of knew the story because of social media and such. But once I heard "How Far I'll Go" and how it was placed in the story, it all clicked. It clicked so well that I was holding back tears. Taking a risk was the lesson I had to learn for myself. Even though my family would love for me to stay here with them, I have to let myself be free so I can see how far I'll go and what I can do outside the condensing walls of the city. In applying my life directly to the Moana song, I've always been drawn to the North East and have always felt a connection to it before I even stepped foot in that area of the country. With every minute I spend there, I crave 5 more. I can't let my fears and the possible disappointment of my family hold me back. 

Now depending on who you are, you maybe praising the Lord that one more person in the world has got it figured out, or you may be skeptical or disagree with what I've concluded. Regardless, I wish you well and I hope you have successes in figuring out humanity and life. 

Much Love,

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

Never Hike in Keds

BONUS: Here a snapshot of how nasty and exhausted I looked after. 
Outfit Details:
Purple & White Striped Shirt: Thrifted
White Jean Shorts: Thrifted
Popsicle Pin: Target Dollar Section
Shoes: Target
BackPack: Forever 21

Do you ever just get incredibly lazy? Lazy to the point that even some of your favorite things to do feel like an unnecessary chore? I haven't wanted to do anything lately. I don't know, maybe the heat of the summer is finally slowing me down. 

Speaking of things I don't/didn't want to do: when I was vacationing in Montana, my aunt kidnapped me one day and forced me to go hiking in the 100 degree heat. I think the worst part was that I was hoping to get out of it and, thus, did not wear proper clothing or shoes. While it ended up not being the worst thing in the world, the number of calories I burned made up for what I had missed out on back at the farm. Makoshika Park ended up not being too terrible of a place, I would recommend the loop that includes the natural bridge. It's not too difficult and has some pretty great views. 

Despite being completely in love with this look, I feel like the hat that I borrowed and the intense light destroyed the look. Quite honestly, I feel like these are some of these worst pictures of me in the world... The next ones should be much better though!

Much Love, Jac

Monday, July 17, 2017

Red Shirt, White Shoes, and Blue Pineapples?

Outfit Details:
Shirt & Shorts: Thrifted
Socks: Hue/Marshalls (Here are some other fun ones by Hue and Happy Socks!)
Shoes: Target 
Black Backpack: Forever 21
Necklace & Ring: Vintage/Thrifted 
Pin: Thrifted (It's a lot like the Tsum Tsum one!)

After making sure I had red, white, and blue in my outfit, I wore an even better 4th of July outfit a couple days later. *sigh*

This is one of my typical/ more casual outfits. This look, an old/thrifted button down with the longer denim shorts, crazy socks and Keds, is something I wear all the time. It's casual and comfortable, especially since the shorts are usually a little large for me. The necklace is one that I've had since I was young. Young enough that I've lost it half a dozen times, but old enough that I remember getting it. I wear it almost every day. The ring is my senior ring actually, that I found at a local vintage shop in town. To tie off almost all of my looks, I usually wear a pair of fun socks, which I have a ridiculous amount of!

I wrote something the other night that I can't wait to post! Stay tuned!

Much Love, 

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

The Independence Tractors

My cousin got married at the end of the week following the 4th of July, so my family and I made a trip out of it and spent the whole week in Eastern Montana. The second day was, in fact, the Fourth of July, so we drove about 30 minutes away from my Aunt and Uncle's farm to Lambert, Montana.

I had never been to Lambert before and was expecting a little bit more. It wasn't an over-the-top parade like what you might see in the movies (Safe Haven comes to mind for me!), but it was still fun and entertaining to see the children run to get the candy that was thrown. It was a nice community gathering, which I needed. Having grown up in a nice connected community, I always find it refreshing to be included in other small events. After the parade, the fire department (I'm assuming?) hosted a barbecue for the parade watchers. I had their pulled pork, and it was so good! It was the perfect 4th of July lunch. We ate in the park and drank fresh lemonade... It was perfect.

Back to the parade, I've never seen so many tractors at once. The majority of the parade was tractors because it is a primarily farming community. I will say though it was interesting seeing all the different and vintage tractors. Also, there were some of the cutest dogs there!

That night we watched fireworks from my aunt's porch. I still haven't entirely figured out my camera, so I didn't get any good pictures. Whoops! But it was really cool seeing the fireworks from such a far distance while they mingled with the city lights. Even in the one decent photo I captured, it wasn't nearly as amazing as what i saw through my eyes.

As for my outfit, I am planning a separate follow-up post on it, and some of my other looks from the trip.
Have a Beautiful Day!

Monday, June 19, 2017

A Weekend in Paradise

What's summer without a trip to the ocean? Or at least the bay... 
This past weekend my family and I packed up the car and drove a few hours to the beach in Alabama. I'm not much a beach person: itchy sand, the water, too much sun, etc. Staying at our cousin's house on the bay was so wonderful. Because of the location, I was able to witness one of the most beautiful sunsets and bake under the guidance of my cousin. We were only there for 3 days so the trip wasn't too extravagant.

We actually spent the first night in Mobile because we left late in the afternoon Thursday. Before heading to the beach on Friday, we enjoyed sandwiches from Panini Pete's for lunch. I had the Fresh Mozzarella and Tomato Sandwich and it was SO GOOD. If you are ever in Mobile, I HIGHLY recommend going there for lunch. If I may add as a side note: the cousin that ate lunch with us did bring us there early (like 11:30) because it is a very popular cafe and gets very busy.

My cousin loves to cook and bake. In fact, the first thing she said to me when we got there was "Oh great you're here! We're making a pound cake." And then she walked up stairs and I helped her make it before I went swimming. The next day while my mom and brother and other family members went fishing, I relaxed at the house, and let me just say, that it was one of the nicest, most relaxing days I've had in a while. That night I, under her guidance, made focaccia bread to go with dinner. The next morning I woke up early, and we made cinnamon scones. They were so delicious and I am dying to make them again!

On the way back we stopped at a small farmers market, which wasn't nearly as great as I had hoped... It was small, crowed, and very hot. I did get some artsy pictures of the corn and tomatoes though, so the stop was not a complete waste. The rest of the way home however was 2 hours longer than it was supposed to take, so you can bet your butt that I napped a lot. While I spent my Father's Day in the car, I hope everyone else had an enjoyable day with the men in their lives!

Much Love, 

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

A Flashback to Festival and Friendships

Top Outfit:
Velvet Romper: Marshalls or TJ Maxx
Fishnet Stockings: Target 
Boots: Shoe Station (old)

Bottom Outfit:
White Button Down Shirt: Thrifted 
Daisy Choker: Forever 21
Shorts: Thrifted
Shoes (not pictured): Black Sandals from Shoe Station 

Every year my city hosts an international music festival towards the end of April and I always put way too much effort into my outfits. (Even more effort than I do my daily outfits!) Festival is a time when (almost) everyone lets their inner weirdo come out in their style and actions, and I LIVE for it. Unfortunately it rained the third day of Festival so my favorite outfit of the three was not worn or photographed. I hope my lousy description can suffice... It was a plain white shirt with a long red skirt that I got from Goodwill Houston with the jean jacket that I picked up at my local Goodwill. I paired it with my black booties that I wore the first night of Festival (in the first pictures!). With the fun music and the varying personalities, Festival always takes me away from my boring day-to-day life in this boring southern town. It takes me somewhere else...

In addition to the music at Festival, there is always an irritating stress that comes with it and that's the social aspect of everything. I am a pretty social person. As one of my closest friends told me, "you're probably the most social person I know." The only thing is that I have trouble keeping the relationships I make and I've never been able to fix it. I know part of it comes from my inability to trust people and part of it comes from the pain I've experienced in the past. But I think a large part of it comes from me trying not to get attached. I don't plan on staying the South forever, in fact, I want to leave as soon as I can (college maybe?). Regardless, it's made these past few years very lonely, but I'm making it work for the time being. 

I find it especially hard to make it work during the summer. This is due to the fact that there is minimal travel being done by myself, but a lot done by others. I am not forced to see anyone but my immediate family daily, but humans need human interaction to survive and function fully. I do have some travel plans for later in the summer, however, and I do have some fun activities planned, as well. Stay Tuned!

Until next time, I hope you all have a fun, safe Summer!

Much Love,

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Sunday, March 19, 2017

A Longing

It's been more than a month since I've returned from my 24 hour excursion to New York City, and with almost every moment, my desire to return back to that area of the Nation grows stronger. Just as I fell in love with D.C and L.A., I have fallen for New York. 
Though some may be turned away from the towering structure, multitudes of people, and the bright lights, I strive in their presence. I live for the blinding lights and the creativity that bleeds through the streets, and the magic that I breathe in. The city was, is, and forever will be breathe-taking. 
Because we weren't there very long, I don't have too much to tell about what we did. We went to the 9/11 museum, which was phenomenal and I definitely recommend, we went on a tour of the city, and saw the Statue of Liberty. I would love to go and spend a longer period of time there, but that's an adventure for another day. 

Much Love, Jac